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oke...
c u there friends..
muach

MOVING BLOG

hey... i move my blog to xanga..
coz in blog i dunno how to put some pictures etc
xanga is easier..
so just click on
www.xanga.com/ninin_p
oke...
c u there friends..
muach

MOVING BLOG

hey... i move my blog to xanga..
coz in blog i dunno how to put some pictures etc
xanga is easier..
so just click on
www.xanga.com/ninin_p
oke...
c u there friends..
muach

:)

Haha..
its been a long time not to write my blog
:)
i've been doin great..
greater than i can ever imagine :)
i found thousands things I never knew before
here in Singapore
its been a great great great journey i have here..
and there still a long long long way to go
from here
from now
:)
I love my Life.
the life that I knew has to change
over time
:)
more stories will come
enjoy

Dissapointment

It is sad not to get what you hoped for, but
wishes that come true are like eating from the
tree of life. - Proverbs 13:12

Life is filled with disappointments.
Many of God's greatest servants experienced deep
disappointment in their journeys of faithfulness
to God.

~ Joseph, after spending years as a slave and in
jail for crimes that he did not commit, revealed
deep disappointment when he was forgotten another
two years in prison.

~ John the Baptist, when awaiting execution,
doubted whether Jesus was, in fact, the Christ
because he was sitting there awaiting his death.

~ Elijah, losing all hope and despondent to the
point of death, asked God to take his life in the
desert.

~ Peter, who left his fishing business and
invested three years of his life only to watch his
Savior crucified, wondered whether the purpose of
those three years could be justified.

When life doesn't add up, it leaves the heart sick.
When we have done all we know to do and the
formula has not worked, it leaves us questioning.
These are times that try the very souls of men.
There is no human sense to be made of it.
We are left with a choice: to cling or not to
cling. There are times when holding on to our
Master's robe is all that we can do. It is all
that He wants us to do.

"The heights by great men reached and kept
Were not obtained by sudden flight;
But they, while their companions slept,
Were toiling upward in the night.
Standing on what too long we bore,
With shoulders bent and downcast eyes,
We may discern-unseen before-
A path to higher destinies!"

~ Longfellow ~

There is only one answer to life's disappointments.
Like the psalmist, we must "Find rest, O my soul,
in God alone; my hope comes from Him. He alone is
my rock and my salvation; He is my fortress, I
will not be shaken" (Ps. 62:5-6).

*~taken from fs bullboard~*

dissapointment memang salah satu pressure yang menyesakkan
saat kita kecewa akan sesuatu
orang dgn mudahnya berkata
'just be grateful, stop complaining'
do you know how hard it is to overcome?
do u know how hard it is NOT BEING AFFECTED by the devil's intimidation?
do u know how hard is the devil keeping us for this??
sometimess...
when we say thingss
abt our pressure
we just need the security
the security that u will be behind us
support us
listen to us
may be we know the theory
what to do
how to do
but
it takes time
it takes efforts
yet it's not easy
to reveal
sometimes we fall
but we'll raise up again
and again
and again...
untill the time..


guys...
we are sorry to make u tired of us
we are sorry for u to listen to us
yet we are oso struggling inside
to overcome
to be the one

leaving you for love

aku pergi
karna aku memilih
pilihan yang kau beri
pilihan yang aku miliki

kamu perduli
tapi kamu sedih
pilihan yang aku pilih
kamu harus pergi

aku takut sendiri
tapi aku bisa berdiri
karna Tuhan yang memberi
kekuatan dalam hati

berat dan sakit
bukan hanya aku yang miliki
tapi semua hati
untuk kebaikan diri

aku cinta kamu
aku tunggu kamu
sampai kamu tahu
Tuhan mencintaimu

carilah milikmu
tulang rusukmu
aku tunggu milikku
berharap itu kamu

aku sudah siap
aku akan pergi
berlalu
bersama doa di hati
bahwa kamu akan kembali
bersama Tuhan
satu saat nanti...

my 2nd boy f's.. lyrics

Song for Anita

She came to mind, I can't help thinking of what was left unsaid Youth aged suddenly, so quickly Waiting...like the smiling Mona Lisa

Looking at her, like a flower precariously blooming on the edge of the cliff Shall I let memory go beyond what's hidden Love, takes away all my fear and concern

When will the everlasting wind cease to blow? How long shall I endure this pain? In my eyes, The four seasons come and go, and had become eternal The withered heart need not anyone's pity or discernment She, is a dream, I never would want to wake from... Anita

Who do you love

In the darkness we are both silent
You only want to go home, I don't want you to go
Loneliness deep as the ocean is so unbearable
Your gentle hand softly touching my hair
Your expression say you long for my embrace
But you seemed to be running for your life
Longing to disappear
Do you love me or him?
Is it true he is better than me?
Who are you struggling for?
Do you love me or him?
Please say out the true words from your heart
Do you want to follow me, or him?
Love ~ love ~ love ~ him
Is this life punishment for me?
Love or hate you, I have no idea
Carrying this burden, I only want to let go
Grabbing your hand, I am being pulled down
Your expression say you don't want my embrace
Everytime love comes to a finale, you look for escape
Do you love me or him?
How can I make things better, so you will not struggle
Do you love me or him?
I rather listen to a cruel answer than be ditched
Do you love me or him?
For you I find a hundred reasons, I am just that silly
Do you love me or him?
Should I take silence to be your answer, I realised now
Do you love me or him?
You don't even know who is the best, so why should I worry
Do you love me or him?
I will take silence to be your answer, so let's stop fighting
Go and love him

Remember Yesterday

Yesterday aku pergi ke city harvest church
fiuh.... what a church!!!
with Kong hee as the preacher
niceeeee.....
powerfull..
a bit late actually
but its ok lar..

slama ini aku selalu berfikir
berfikir mencari jawaban
jawaban atas banyak pertanyaan
pertanyaan yang kerap di lontarkan

why u never smoke?
why u refuse to go to clubs?
why u change ur subject Again?
why u never been hooked up?
why this?
why that?

those questions made me maddd!!!
we have to be vr carefull for not embarrased ourself

i've been searching for the answer
i've been modifying a more dramatic answer
i've been trying to make up an answer
trying for me to look better

because He loves me

and I love Him

'because i love Him, so i wouldn't say anything that make Him sad.. I wouldn't do anything that hurt His feeling.."

' I die a thousand death everyday..'

I love U Jesus

Pasir berbisik

Pasir Berbisik
sebuah film dengan arti terselubung
berbicara lewat alunan
nada nada mendayu lamban
ibu dan anakdatang seorang ayah
ayah yang slalu di idamkan

Daya
seorang anak beliaberparas cantik jelita
ditinggal aleh bapaknyasaat ia masih balita
ibu tak pernah bercerita
tentang ayah kemana saja ayah
kapan ayah kembali
seperti apa ayah
daya juga sudah lupa

ayah pasti perkasa

daya mencari jati dirinya
daya sedih selalu dilarang oleh ibunya
daya ingin seperti wanita lainnya
menari di tengah pantai samudra
berkebaya merah merona
tanpa mengetahui arti sebenarnya

IBU
ibu berlian
keras
rupawan
ibu.. tak banyak bicara
diam seribu bahasa
tentang masa kelam
maupun masa mendatang
berlian seorang sosok ibu yang sejati
dia melarang daya untuk pergi melihat bu le nya menari juga
karena penari itu seorang pelacur
dia sosok pendiam
dia sangat mencintai daya
tanpa melalui media
tanpa kata2
dia melarang
dia memerintah

entah maksudnya
apa topeng yang di berikan salah seorang pemberontak untuk daya"ibumu tak perlu.. karena ia punya mata dibelakang"mungkin melambangkan suatu kepolosanharus hati2 dengan sesuatu dibalik sesuatudan juga bisa berarti'pulang'

bapak/ayah
ia pergi mencari impian
berkelana berusaha untuk ke kota
tapi nihil yang ia dapat
lalu ia kembalipulang...
mendengarkan...
pasir bergumam...
ia kembali...
masih membawa mimpi...
penghancur mimpi
entah demi apa ngaak jelas
yang pasti demi material
ayah menjual daya
sex secara tak langsung

arti pasir berbisik itu sendiri juga tidak pasti
daya senang mendengarkan ceritasukma (teman daya) berkata 'setiap pendatang baru pasti membawa bau pasir yang baru)yang dimaksudkan adalah cerita
cerita yang baru
daya senang mendengar cerita
cerita dari pasir yang mengalir dari sana
bisikan rahasia di balik semuanya
yang ingin diketahuinya

sangat menarik saat ibunya yang dari dulu memanggil daya dengan nama 'anak'itu menandakan dia masih harus berperan menjadi seorang anak
dalam naungan ibunyasetelah tiba waktunya
daya harus pergi
daya pergidengan namanya

satu...dua...tiga...